The worst problem you can have is one you cannot accept.
Despite its existance, you cannot deny. – Simone Dimitriou
Born into my mind as a premonition unfolds,
With feelings, an unknowing, no denying.
Accumulation then proceeded by the humiliation,
Unsatisfying, but the pain so beautifully suffices.
These eyes look… but the images are ill;
Purely reminders of how I imagined it had been.
Dreams indicate the extent to which it invades my feelings toward you now.
Affection exists only in a superfluous moment before returning to nothing;
Like the uncontainable flashes of light in a dense cover,
A thunderstorm like no other.
Proud: you against me,
Is this really competition or merely lashing out in pain?
No desire for gain…?
In the conscious, but dare we say what lies beneath.
~I dont hate you,
But I hate this pain~
Going back to what once whispered familiarity- a sort of constant;
But after time spent away reaches a certain mark,
a newfound familiarity, friends, food, feelings;
An ever-fading memory of the otherwise known- shown.
He showed her where he was- she accepted.
And now as she returns to her place of prior existance,
She knows it;s just vacation.
And eventually she will feel home-sick- confirmation of it all.
She knows she will go back to her known, and for the first time it will be different,
– not her only home…
And she will smile as she realises her chance to have that feeling more than once,
In more than one place,
She has felt- home.
He saved me because he broke me with love…
You know, when I was depressive I would try hurt myself in various ways just to feel pain, to feel something;
And it worked… however momentary.
The pain was there as the blade entered my flesh, when the blood began to rush to the surface, followed by the chilling tingles rushing through my nerv…
– But, the next day the pain was gone and after that it was only a matter of hours before the healing began to overpower that of its counterpart…
So when I came here I was like ‘pfff‘,
then slowly this escalated feeling overtook and love became my trip,
until one day my shadow (me) faded to superfluous smidgens of grey…
He broke me, cut right through my heart, so deep.
This extreme feeling so profound I wanted to live again knowing that I could feel- something -so real, so pure, so true.