expect nothing …

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whenemotionsfail2hide

Expect nothing and in return; a preparation and opportunity to be impressed… or depressed by that which comes from it; When your mind consumes that of anothers reaction, when you seem to stumble upon some god-given right to say that which is right…

well it’s simple really… the higher power we give many names and many a colourful explanation for, the thing none of our minds are surely able to fathom;

the power bestowed on you as we feel it is on “him”…

religion or none. I know if your breathing right now… you surely weren’t the one to create that which I live, walk through and breathe each day. That which my own eyes reveal to me. the seeing, tasting, smelling, touching, hearing… that which I spent my life entraining and tuning-in with…

If you plan to play it, be sure you can answer to that which is still to be answered…that which is still…

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my hero

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Even the most beautiful, loving soul-combining,

has the possibility of destructive behaviour…

 

I was given something about one and a half years ago,

such an opportunity, offered with love and hope;

sincerity…

 

It was perfectly imperfect,

real.

 

As time continued, so did life,

and the choices and daily actions of a new duet…

 

There came a point where an analysis,

demanded certain changes of the other part;

the part which thought it understood…

 

Understanding was not the solution however,

not fully…

 

Responsibility was missing,

absent.

 

And soon, this continuation without changes,

fell short of harmony…

 

And the longer this remained,

the further apart the duo grew…

And the more the desperation arose,

the harder it became for clarity to exist…

 

Followed by disappointments, forgiveness was always suffocated by the repetitive mistakes and failures…

-The role of victim and hero doesn’t exist when there is no sign of saviour-

As the cycle continues to make its turn, this stationary status initiates negative impact:

-A further drift in the harmony that was…

-The victim who has been for so long forgets the concept of effort and change and remains in pain and darkness…

-This energy which then reflects itself selfishly on the other,

and this unjust burden comes with a numbing effect…

-Eventually the death and emotionless atmosphere consumes the present,

-while the remaining pain selfishly continues to stab and hurt that which felt hurt it too…

-Not making any room for a comprehension of the other, just the self.

 

So finally when the calm arrives, and it does, the pain forgets about its blind behaviour and begins only then to see how much it managed to hurt the hero…

The one they always loved. And for this, I am now able to say I truly am sorry and furthermore thankful for it all.

Aside

‘Salivated’, elastic dreams lead to this and that…

‘Of what’, becomes one of the many questions to follow,

and ‘why’, the childlike all-time father’s favourite,

‘To answer’, where to begin, be it best to wait…

 

‘For what’, in a frame where time only appears to be standing still,

but staring, the big hand continues her clockwise fashion…

Another aspect which never seems to have its end,

In a mind, whose will be behind the next theme,

 or scheme- whichever you prefer…

 

Preference will walk on by all the rest until it meets what’s suited best,

Oh yes- the test, but the score won’t be written so don’t fret your little head with ideas of false impressions built up by others expectations…

 

When the number remains limitless and ongoing,

perhaps the answer is to be as is, 

Now go.

expect nothing …

Aside

Expect nothing and in return; a preparation and opportunity to be impressed… or depressed by that which comes from it; When your mind consumes that of anothers reaction, when you seem to stumble upon some god-given right to say that which is right…

well it’s simple really… the higher power we give many names and many a colourful explanation for, the thing none of our minds are surely able to fathom;

the power bestowed on you as we feel it is on “him”…

religion or none. I know if your breathing right now… you surely weren’t the one to create that which I live, walk through and breathe each day. That which my own eyes reveal to me. the seeing, tasting, smelling, touching, hearing… that which I spent my life entraining and tuning-in with…

If you plan to play it, be sure you can answer to that which is still to be answered…that which is still to be asked…

Be sure to receive multiple questions from me.

I mean, if you are so above as to foresee and decide on my ‘reactions requirements’, please give me the priviledge of being enlightened by all that which you are. If not, then why are you never fulfilling your satisfaction when communicated outside your comfortable, unique fort and don’t you see how one day, just like with everything else, it will not be enough.

And so, when communication you based on a conscious or unconscious self-belief and attitude fails, who then will you be.  If eventually you realise this, well…

who then will be there for you to show…